Friday, April 21, 2017


I maybe bias when i first knew i was pregnant with my first born child. Maybe there's something special having her after gone through abortion at six weeks of pregnancy before her birth. It felt like the whole world fell on me, us actually. It's hard to cope up then and depression hits anytime of the day, and night. Then afterwards when we became ready to have another one it takes too long for me to conceive. Days and months of waiting flew by and there's nothing. The emotion is like a roller coaster then and there are times that it's hard to cope, you will just cry actually and sadness always hits. But i don't want to dwell of being in sorrow for too long and before we knew it, i find ways on how to get it done by the help of a professional. It's a blessing that after two months of treatment i have burst in joy, in tears in front of my ob gyne ( still thankful for her up to now! ) when i knew i was pregnant again. Finally, the wait is over!
What i remember then is i know nothing about mothering and i don't even read books on how to. What i know is that i want to have a child and praying it will be a girl. my husband wanted it too coming from a brood of only one sister. On my part maybe because there's certain bond between me and my mom that fight together to live in this place we called world that's why i look forward and pray to have a daughter as our first. A big blessing that it's an answered prayer.
When you become a mother at a young age ( 21 then ) there's a certain part of routine that it's hard to get through. Yes, emotionally i'm very much prepared. But physically? I don't think so. I appreciate so much that i have my mom at my side then to support me in toting my child. Day to day life becomes easier with her around until i find myself getting ready on the physical mothering chores and became skilled on it as years pass by.
Now my eldest daughter is 22 years old. ( say it in three times!! ) Sometimes i want to pinch myself, is it true? How come? With just a blink of an eye. I maybe stuck so much on teaching and to discipline her ( with the other three ) on the ways and hows of life until i find myself soaking in reflection about her as a full blown woman. And then the truth strikes on me, maybe what i thought on her throughout the years was instill on her now that she can make a decision of her own. To grow and reach her life to the fullest. Maybe just like a kite, when the wind becomes stable that's the time we watch it on how beautiful it dance and flew through the sky, only until the wind blows so hard that we can able to pull the yarn and get it back on track.
Maybe i am in that stage of mothering with this first born child of mine. A new chapter for me and a beginning of life's chapter for her. I can only wish her all the goodness in this life's battle. Hopeful and praying that she will see first and enjoy the beauty of life before settling down.
And you, in what stage of parenting are you at this time? Like me did you became a mom at a young age too? How do you cope on that?

Thursday, April 13, 2017


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I always tell that summer is one of my favorite season aside from Christmastime and i know that my children will nod about it. Though it's really hot during these time of days, and when i say hot it means you can melt a piece of ice cube in just five minutes! It's really sweating hooot and thankful for the one who invented aircondition that calm your nerves for not having a heat stroke. But this is the life and the idea of tropical living during these time. And over all, you dream and plan about outdoor activities, swimming and going to the beach, and the best part is spending quality time with families and love ones.

Planning getaways with the eldest who's now an adult is not as easy as they are five years ago. Little by little they have some sort of plan and beginning to have a life of their own. Still thankful though that we still live in the same roof and have no plan yet of moving. Halleluyah! ( you know what it means to a mama's heart when that time comes. ) That's what i love most with filipino traditions, there is enough time to be together and bonded the family ties even more. That theory makes me and the husband happy and will have a room for us to accept until the time they do a life of their own. Nevertheless, love that i can see the glow in their eyes, the happiness and excitement whenever we talk and plan on things. Still.

I do love little get aways and cherish them in our memory box but i think the routine in our day to day is more important part. I still remember when i was young, cleaning the dishes while humming or singing is my favorite thing to do. Aside from playing in our yard, catching dragon flies or even picking camias fruits while my mommy is clearing the weeds, watering the plants or hanging fresh laundry clothes. Even going to the wet market early in the morning while goods are still fresh delivered by the farmer is my favorite thing to do. After then my papa and I will cook together if he is home. I appreciate whenever we have time spend together, and maybe the reason why cooking is not a chore or task for me at all. It also broadened my vocabulary that cooking is a definition of love made from scratch. A beautiful nostalgic memories flashing back on me each time. That's a part of my sweetest memories growing up and i noticed that a big part of my routine today covers all that. I really love the art of slow living, maybe that's the influence of the countryside where i live in growing up, aside from the people around me then that i will forever cherish and love.

Early summer i let Iya plant the seeds. We replenish some packet and added some too in between. I am excited that we can able to add a little vegetables in our yard. Even though our garden spot is small, i love the idea that we can able to plant other vegetables aside from herbs and tomatoes. There's nothing better than able to eat fresh produce coming from your own garden, right? And also, picking time is always a favorite thing to do. Though we start small, we are looking forward to experience a good harvest but if not, the experience itself makes our summer time so worth it. But if lucky enough i can let Iya harvest fresh produce direct from the garden aside from cherry tomatoes, her favorite.

So day by day i love the idea of visiting our plants. It makes me giddy every time and burst my heart in  joy seeing flower buds and sprouting seeds. The chirping of the birds while having my cup of coffee in the morning is like a sanctuary to my ears. It always reminds me of the time i visited the church. How rad to think that birds also like yards and churches. Maybe they do reflect and pray too like us.

Nowadays i can say that i am a lady,  physical changes happens on me day by day i think. Like a transition of leaves. Gosh! But i am ready and accepted that fact that it will happen one day, and that day comes. But, i appreciate and love where i am at right now at this point of my life. Looking back 25 years ago or so, just thinking about what i wanted then in life. And today, i can say that i am living on it. I remember then that i did not dream of being rich but just to have a complete and happy family. Just like career, it put a lot of hard work, passion, dedication, love and perseverance to achieve it. Whatever you want in life started with a dream, right? Then to set a goal is important to achieve it. Struggles, pains, and happiness come and go, and the biggest weapon above all is faith to overcome all to find joy. It's the only one that can give you real peace of mind that you can't buy, even how rich and famous you are. 

Have a meaningful week to all.

Till then.

Saturday, April 8, 2017


For now let's talk about skincare. This maybe one topic that I would not mind talking over and over. I have been a fan of Korea novelas since Jewel in the Palace days more than a decade ago now. Are you? Since then I started to noticed how beautiful their skin were and already became a fan. From then on I've started to research, tried and patronize their skincare line who's result doesn't disappoint over time.

If there is a specific area that I've been linient to take care of over the years is the eye area. This is where aging first shows, right? Like fine to deep lines, under eye bags and circles and forget not to mention crows feet in the future. Sometimes taking care of the skin focus on the face and ignore the eyes. These two should go hand in hand if you want to see ultimate young looking result, the most in the future.

Last year, I was looking for a new intensive eye cream line to try, I've picked up the  Laneige Perfect Renew Eye Cream, an Amore Pacific brand from Korea known for producing luxury skincare line. At 40 applying eye cream become a part of a routine but as you age, there is a right skincare to correctly combat your concern. There's a different eye cream for one specific needs and my concern now is to prevent my upper eye lid from drooping, to firm up and plump the area. Under eye bags and circles is a minor concern for me and thankful for a slice of cold cucumber that's been a therapy at night if i want a soothing relief, best to do before bedtime.

Now back to Perfect Renew Eye Cream, this is my second pot from Laneige. Though the packaging now is different from my last purchase but the result is just the same for me. Packaging wise, the color is cool and pretty that felt like I stepped into the sea for it's deep turquoise blue color. Maybe the concept derives from the ingredients which is the marine algae and ceramide. After I emptied the first pot, been more curious to try skincare line with marine ingredients and see if the result is different or would just be the same. Added that I am pleased with the new packaging since the pot is easier to open now not like before that my excitement fade off due to it's hard lid opening.

Comparison of the old ( bottom ) and new packaging

Due to warm tropical climate where I live in i love products that have a gel type finish. With this one, at first it's like a cream but when applied, it looks like a gel, easily to blend and immediately absorb by the skin so applying eye make up would not be a problem at all. It has a very light scent that can be considered none if you are use to heavy scented products. This is a big factor for those who have sensitive skin and can't stand strong smell like I do. Over all I love how it hydrates, firms, plumps and lighten the lines and show visible results in just five days base on my usage. And also felt like I have a good night sleep when I wake up in the morning. I consider this as a luxury beauty due to it's price range and base on my budget but the result is totally worth the splurge.

The pot contain 20 ml and price as php 2,450 ($ 45-50). A bit pricey but the 5 ml is a bonus considering eye cream usually size up as 15 ml only.  It lasted about five months on me applied twice a day, morning and at night and good for all skin types. I can say it's highly recommended and a must have! Most especially if you are looking for a skincare product with an immediate results. Did you ever tried this product? What's your thought about it?

I bought mine in Laneige local store and you can get yours here  in the US.

Thursday, March 30, 2017


Dry cool months lasted, no more layering of clothes and cold breezy air. We are back to the normal tropical heat as we flip this month's calendar. Blooms is everywhere here now, how about at your end? The prettiest month for nature lover like me to witness flowers in different colors and varieties as well as emerald green color of bushes and trees. Kids started early in their school vacation this time and are all excited for our summer get away. As for this mama just feeling thankful for a couple of hours adjustment, a big help for my physical body not to wake up as early as five in the morning. Halleluyah!

Though we are all adjusting in our new routine as the summer month unfolds but rejoicing at the same time since we able to finished one school calendar year with flying colors, So to reward ourselves with all the hard work, we are excited one early weekend and tossed our things up and head to a swimming party. Kids loves to swim so much and they are all looking forward for days like these added to our itinerary every summer, are you? For me I enjoy it accompany by a nature walk, grilling, lounging and just, eat! that's what picnics and swimming are for, right?

Now for the resort, I just can't believe we started exploring resorts in the area just last year when we are looking for a nearby place to celebrate son1's birthday. We enjoy our day so much that we plan to come back then to explore the place more. Bosay is a huge resort with different types of swimming pool; therapy, salt water and even olympic size pool to name a few. We just stay there for a day swimming but they also offer cottages for those who want to stay overnight and even private pool if you are into it. A great place for the whole family who want to relax and unwind after a busy week. We all know that it's an exciting part to plan ahead and go explore a place far away from home but once in a while I do appreciate a nearby santuary for an impromptu rejuvenation without the fuss.

Summer days is just started, the beginning of new memories to cherish. One of the many memorable mini vacation and celebration in our family fall on this season. How about you? How do you celebrate spring and / or summer? 

Happy vacation! 

Tuesday, March 21, 2017


                                 Our  home runs on love, laughter and lots of strong coffee.

Sometimes things happened in an expected way and God surprise us with a gift that is beyond what we prayed for. Last quarter of last year we have an answered prayer and got the key to our new home. No more renting guys and it felt sooo good. I can't thank Him enough for the wonderful shelter He instore for us. Just a reminder that good things comes to those who wait and prayers can move mountains. Just keep on talking to Him and be specific on your prayers and He will make a way to make it happen. Really.

We  love the surroundings here in Rizal and we don't want to leave since our kids grew up here, we love the fact that we live in the city but just like living in the province at the same time with all the variety of trees covering the ground and birds chirping in the yards. A bonus part that market, schools, church and other primary establishments are within reach too.

A little back track, our landlord then gave us six months notice to leave the apartment, then extended it to a year for her personal reason. We take it as an advantage on our part so we can decide on what we should do next. The process of house hunting is an exciting part but stressful at the same time. First, we need to find a property that is ready for occupancy. Having four children and two studying in college, we think it's not practical to rent while the unit is under construction. So we must find one that is readily available at the market until we move in.

There are a few model units that we like and some we really love but unfortunately, some of them are already taken and some are not yet open for sale until most of the unit is sold. Disappointments and excitements come and go while in the process, but it's overwhelming to see pretty houses and interiors, as well as adorable neighborhood with pretty gardens along the road. Our house hunting runs a month I think before finding the right one and we ended up being a second owner of a four years old home. I looove how the morning light beams the first time we entered the property and we knew then in our heart that it will be the one. A bonus part that we don't need to fix anything before moving in since the previous owner maintain the house well. A good deal isn't it? But one of the many reasons why we push the hit button is the back kitchen. ( kitchen, a happy place! ) I already envision our kitchen plan the first time I saw it, though still need a lot of work  but the size and the lay out is just perfect for what we are looking for and functionable as it is. And from there the story goes...

Starting from there we are all nesting. It's hard to sink in that you wake up in the morning and can't believe we have a house of our own after all those years of waiting. A home that will be filled with so much love and compassion. A place that will let all the walls hear our voices and laughter and so our sentiments. A place aside from us will know the details of our life and a place that be filled with memories of our family. A place where my children will keep coming back in the future because they know we are home waiting for them anytime, until we are old and gray.

Life is full of surprises, there comes a time that our journey here and there is not align the way we wanted it to be, but don't not give up! Instead, make a way to find joy even in the darkest times because before you knew it, you find the greatest lessons in life dealing with all the struggles. Just hold on and have faith, and an abundance of blessing overflows next.

This is one of the greatest blessings that will gonna keep us from being grateful everyday of our lives. It's not an easy thing to acquire for us but the wait is so worth it. Shelter is one of the gift we want to share to our family, a gift to our kids and forever be grateful that we are now here starting to dig and make memories. Thank you friends for letting me share this journey with you. It's just that I find this journal a part of my outlet  from the very start and a way to boost positive thoughts since it all started when I try to find a new perspective in the new chapter of my personal life.

What's the story behind your home? Will you mind to share? You can leave the link below and will be happy to visit. 

Till then.

Tuesday, March 14, 2017


Fillers and Botox are the most common words you can hear these days in the beauty industry or even to a group of individuals. Botox started here not long time ago but fillers is the new cosmetics procedure that's been done lately by so many, or maybe there's a new one now, as clinics pop up like a mushroom in this field. But ask of me who always infatuated by beauty and an old schooler, I never thought before that the one smiling back at me or the artist that I've been a fan of looking done that kind until some persons I know enlighten me on that part, on how to trace a person who undergo a procedure.

I have nothing against it to begin with. I respected individuals who come out with their decision in doing so. For me, it's a major decision that all the pros and cons must be needed to think of. It's a way to show how you lift yourself and have (more) self confidence. But everyone of us is entitled to our own opinions, right?And these are mine. There comes a time when in circle of friends this topic was brought up. My share is, as long as it can be done in quality and by the doctor that you believe in and you know you will be in good hands with, that's fine. I don't think that  changing or enhancing your look must come in cheap, right?  So if you have a second thought, don't. Second, it must be you in the first place who really wanted it and no ( oh come on can I still use the word "peer pressure" at our age? ) one push you or if  just want to jump on the bandwagon instead you must think of it a lot of times first. To begin with, this is your physical look and if the change can notice by you, expect others might notice it too, right? So you need to accept the fact that there's a positive and negative reaction. So do a lot of paperworks, research and recommendations. A trusted and reputable institution should be the first step to think of. Like having a luxury items in your closet, it's not mostly about the brand, but all about the quality and craftmanship that tag along with it. And before you decide for consultation, make sure that you know what you want because before you knew it, you will leave the clinic with lack of self confidence. The conversation only left you with low self esteem and feeling humiliated because looks like all of your being must need to be improve suddenly and not only the part that you consult in. I know some who experience this kind of conversation and to tell you, it doesn't help a lot on them either. It only left them feel a bit insecure in their current look and some are indenial at first then comes the tendency that they want to try the procedure, then go on and on and on.

Eventhough at this point of time where I able to see fine lines in my forehead and some lines around the eye area I'm not yet in the process of considering botox or fillers, not yet. At 43, I think I have yet to explore on a lot of skincare in the market or a non invasive treatment before considering one, or if I will able to let myself consider the procedure in the future. I have a bunchful of skincare list that still want to try if budget could only fulfill my longing. So I think that's still be my agenda for the years to come. If some of you may agree but I still believe in the process of taking good care of your skin at an early age and when I mean early atleast 18 onwards, that's when I started. But I encourage young ones to apply sunblock as early as possible to prevent the future pigmentation before it appears, most to those who always stay outdoors. A bonus part is that if you have good genes, be thankful for your parents for that. As always prevention is the key and your old self will thank you for doing so. Calling young ones who's at this time showered with natural beauty, fresh and alluring, just a piece of advice. Don't under estimate the process of maintenance and taking good care of your skin in three easy steps in everyday of your life. If you don't before you know it, gravity will hit you and the only remaining solution is a plastic surgery. Not even a bunchful of skincare and make up will help a sagging skin to look good. And maybe even the dermatologist/ surgeon will have an easier job if their client is the one who undergo maintenance rather than the one who doesn't. We should always bear in mind that they are doctors who still rely on the current skin condition, they are good and excell in their fields but they are not a magician if someone think so, so anyone who wants to undergo a certain procedure in the future will still need to have some routinary skincare maintenance, it's still the main key.

But above all there's no beauty without having an inner peace of mind. It's like a sunbeam that will overflow in your entire being and the physical look will only help you to glow a lot better if you are taking good care at it.
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